Right Now, It's Hard

I'm trying to be everything good possible.

I'm trying to be a good daughter. A good sister. A good student. A good friend. A good girlfriend.

A good person.

Why is it so hard to balance everything? When one goes up, the other goes down.

When, I wonder, will I find the middle? When can I let the world take me in? When can I enjoy the things as they are now? When will I be satisfied? When will I be content? When will I be willing to let go of the things I loved before? When will I take in new things? When will I say sorry? When will I learn to say what I need to say, and not say what's not necessary? When will I live to live?

When can I make my life as good as possible without failing so many times over and over again?