Another Allnighter

Rocky Road Chocolate Hazelnut Coffee. That's what I'm drinking right now, after another all-nighter.

I love not sleeping. It makes me feel strong.

Lately I've been depressed and angry and sad and just lonely. I was trying to look for a way to fix it. Chocolate helped a bit. Chips helped a bit. Yogurt and ice cream helped a bit. I started drawing, it helped a bit. Music helped the most.

And then an all-nighter. And it felt amazing.

When I don't sleep, it makes me feel like I have done something we human are not created to do. It makes me feel like I have ventured out into the unknown. I have discovered something strange yet weirdly wonderful. It's nice to see the dark sky lighten up, and the sun slowly set its way up into the sky. It's nice to see that the colors of the leaves are red. It's so fun to do something out of the ordinary. I feel strong to do something not for the weak.

When I don't sleep, it makes me feel strong.
I feel accomplished.
I feel proud of myself.
And only then, am I satisfied.

Unfortunately, it wasn't followed by a car ride. That would have been amazing, but life just doesn't turn out the way I want it to be. If that were true, it wouldn't be earth.