I want a tattoo, fast

As I said above, I want a tattoo. It's been on my mind for a few months now.

So step 1 was choosing a design. That was harder than it looked. I kept changing it from dolphin to sparrow to shark to a sun to lotus flower to some symbol in Sanskrit to a phoenix.

At last, I decided to keep it simple on my first one, and have a kanji character.


ei


inochi


tamashii

I know enough Japanese to actually have one, unlike people who get Chinese and Japanese characters, just because it looks pretty. I cut it down to three characters. But I felt iffy. This wasn't me. Sure, the meanings were important to me, and the characters were simple and pretty, but it just wasn't me. I'm not Japanese. It just wouldn't be me.

I thought about me. Really, me. And the only thing I could think of was a star.

Why? Because I have always drew a star next to my name, starting 7th grade. I wrote it on essays, tests, homework. Even when I had to print something, there was always a star next to my name. By 12th grade, I didn't even bother to write my full name on homeworks. I just wrote HC and drew a star next to it. The teachers knew: they've seen the star for quite some time now.

As of now, I'm going to get a star tattooed on the back of my neck, slightly to the left. It's weird. I don't like it when everything is symmetrical.

Did you know we unconsciously define a person beautiful if their face is symmetrical? Most people do not have symmetrical faces.

Still, weirdly, I don't want the star in the dead center of my neck. Just a little to the side.

I'm going to give it three days. If I still want a star by the end of that day, it's decided.

I will get a star.